My anthem

I was sure I'd posted this at some point, but couldn't seem to find it in my archive. I've spent the last few hours reading through old journals, a personal favorite thing to do. Nothing quite like seeing your heart a bit younger and sometimes more passionate. Its inspiring.

In fact, I was after this journal entry. I remember it like it was yesterday, much that was muddy all of the sudden became clear to me. I understand that my style of writing is sometimes hard to follow, but I invite you into my anthem this summer. Its my hope at best...

Feet

Its the connection to ground

That of great destruction

Yet feet are a tool of grace

The avenue of travel

The avenue of depth

Feet, oh the great need

Oh the mighty dirt

Deep in disgust

There is an offering of cleansing

There is an offering of water to the skin

To remove that which stains

But I'm scared

I'm afraid

I'm reluctant

Of humiliation, exposure, rejection

What if its not enough

What if I went too far

Face to face

I stare at my feet

Great resistance resides within

I wear shoes to cover up my feet

Its my righteousness at best

The good life they call it--she has it all together

I won't let others in

Not to bring shame, oh the shame

Should not my feet have gone else where

And I have known better

Should not I have grown?

Or changed? This I question

A greater expectation for myself

Both I and they have

Will judgement reign

Or accountability shine in

Perhaps I defer the latter

And others feet

That which are paralyzed

Still dirty and never cleansed

What causes compassion

Realization not individualization

Of a current reality

Disgust of dirt

Mine and theirs

Beauty in white

There is beauty in being clean

So my feet

Clean yet carrying dirt

Will they walk forward?

To a continual need

To exposure

To broadcast my dirt

Nakedness and vulnerability

Honesty and depth

Letting Jesus press in

And let others see the need for what my feet can have

My feet were dirty

My feet are red

My feet are clean

My feet are forever.