Waiting is a promise.

The time is drawing near until my wedding day--but most importantly until my marriage begins.

Its all I think about really.

These consuming thoughts have led me to a thought: what if I anticipated the union marriage mirrors like I do this earthly marriage? What if I longed for the return of Christ? What I dreamed of the day my King came back? What if that's what consumed me, motivated me, and moved me towards love?

Sure, I don't know the time or place of such an event. But need I to, to eagerly await? I certainly don't dwell on such thoughts of 'the return' like I am right now of 'the marriage'. The coming marriage I'm about to enter reveals my distracted heart.

I don't long for unity with Christ. I don't long for heaven. For sinless living where there is no pain and complete worship.

In the words of CS Lewis, I'm far too easily pleased.

The promise of the world and its affections has won me over. It has my attention and convinced me its my deepest need.

I submit that waiting for marriage in the Biblical context could be one of the hardest yet most beautiful pictures of waiting. To wait to be one, to give yourself fully, to be patient, is simply hard. Especially when upon engagement you are 'ready.' In a few short days, I anticipate the wait will have high payouts. Waiting is worth it.

Waiting is a promise that will be redeemed by oneness. Its patience that desperately wants to hurry up. Its a holding period.

So too is waiting for the return of our King.

Its a promise that will be redeemed by oneness. Its patience that desperately, or hopefully so, wants to hurry up. Its a holding period.

Both are marriage, abandoning self for the sake of another.

In earthly marriage, between a man and wife, its for the spouse to love, honor, cherish, and serve.

In the marriage to Jesus, its to love, honor, and live fully surrendered daily.

What breaks my heart is I find greater excitement and anticipation in earthly marriage. I've forgotten that this union with Jesus is ultimate. Marriage to one another is not. This painful reminder is the picture I need entering marriage. Its not the end all. It shall be beautiful and I. Can't. Wait. But I know it will not satisfy me quite like my Savior can.

This marriage will bring together two, D and I, so that together we can continue to seek Jesus and serve Him all the days of our lives.

May we do so anticipating & longing for Him together.