All I ever wanted

All I Ever Wanted

What do I even want?

Do I know?

This I wonder

A future, career, family, challenge

What is it that I long for?

To serve selflessly

May it always be!

Or is that a mask for approval

Acceptance

Being made great

Or maybe I really do want to serve

For He is the King

I must decrease

So He can increase

For if it becomes about me

Eyes are shifted

As King Jesus rides triumphantly

Yet humbly so on a donkey

The way kings do

On a donkey

Hosanna in the Highest!

Save us now the people shout

But what need is there to yell Hosanna

When its me that actually wants to be great

I want to save

I want credit

I want

This is all true

Its all about me I fear

I want that to change

I think thats what I really want

For that no longer to be true

But an honest glimpse

Just a glimpse is all you need

To see the revealing truth of what's true of me

For I have forgotten truth

I've misplaced the Gospel

It's become what I share

Not what I experience

Freedom became a coffee appointment

A stat

Cliche

When the Red on the page

Warns me of this trap

The Red turns tables in disgust

Anger

And sadness

The Red enters my heart and shows me tables

Tables that need to be overturned

And thrown out in my life

This gospel pride I call it

The better off lie

Break the legs

And burn the table top

Refine me

Wood will not last

But the gem

The gem I found years back

The pearl in the field

The water at the well

The blood covered cross

Is forever

Is redemption, lasting love, and grace

So King Jesus

Make my body a house of prayer

Sacred like your Word

For I am Your Temple

All the while

Growing in the light

Because yes, thats what I want

With certainty, I want that

I want more of you

All of you forever

If I never have the others

I'll still have all I ever needed

All I ever wanted

This, I know to be true.

Blessings.