Reliving insecurities.

I'm writing from Ft. Collins Colorado, where I am for the rest of the summer. Its a complete privilege to be out at CSU for the summer, going through MTL training. I'm surrounded by some of the finest leaders in our company and am learning a ton.

While out here, I'm having moment after moment of reliving my insecurities of childhood and college. You see, there is a lot happening here.

1. I have braces. I know I say that a lot, but its true until they come off. It takes me back to my childhood days of being called names and such. Its no fun at all.
2. I live in a dorm. I know a lot of people my age out here do too, but it makes your feel young. I use a swipe card to get into my 'home' and a special number to open the bathroom. Its just not homey. I live in a concrete box on a bed that is arguably made out of wood.
3. I eat every meal of the week (expect one) in a cafeteria. Sure, they look different and jazzed up these days. But if I'm eating on colored plates, Pizza hut like cups, and carrying my dishes to the washer, its still the same. The food is mediocre and reminds me of camps and freshman year. But, the meals are all paid for, so I'll eat there and be thankful for the meal provided.
4. I ride my bike everywhere. Its like a I'm child. I don't have a car, so my bike is my transportation. I've been here for a week now and today was my first day off campus. Freedom...
5. I'm irresponsible and lost my ATM card. There is something about this environment that affects me. Last night I left my ATM card in the machine and that was the end of that. I'm living off cash now. As much as I want a reason for why it happened, it was completely my fault and I'm embarrassed.

So there you have it. Things out here don't exactly make me feel old. But, being young is a blessing. It makes me feel like anything is possible, like I'm unstoppable, like any dream is reachable. I guess I like that.