New Experience

Its first worth noting my progress. Yes, its consuming my life and its true, I hate it. I'm doing well I suppose, but progress is slow. I speak with a noticeable lisp and definite pain. So I try to keep it to a minimum throughout the day so when I'm with people I can indulge.

Last night, I went to our weekly meeting. Somewhat out of boredom and somewhat because I wanted to go and be back in the swing of things. Unfortunately, I'm not at the point where I can go to everything or be back into my normal routine, it was nice to go.

I got to catch up with a handful of students and even more exciting for me, get out of the house! It was quite refreshing.

It was like any other meeting. Social time before the meeting, praise and worship, a message and then one last song.

One thing I've come to realize as my faith has grown and I've walked with Christ over time, is its not as much about new experiences and discoveries but it becomes about greater faith in the things you once experienced and discovered. When I first believed, everything I read in the Bible was new. It was exhilarating and exciting. Now, I'm less likely to stumble across something new but more likely to encounter a distraction that hinders me from being with that child like faith.

But last night was different. It wasn't that I uncovered a passage of scripture my broken eyes had never seen. It was that I'd never experienced worship like I did last night. At this point in recovery, its easier and less painful not to talk. So last night during praise and worship, I did just that. I didn't go through the motions like I often did. I just listened. Listened to the voice of His children singing praises to His name. Listen as the God of the universe was glorified in that place. It was splendid. To worship like I normally do but without words was humbly. At first, its awkward. I can hardly explain it. Its not at all like when you just stop singing for a verse to hear others. Its..unexplainable.

I was richly blessed. New experiences are often remember and typically cherished. Tis true and I will. I have all the reason to be thankful. In the midst of a hard situation, God is still good. I didn't need last night for that to be proven or true, its just a good reminder.

Blessings.