For some reason, I keep coming to these words in my time with the Lord. I keep having this feeling that Jesus is enough for me. He is enough in a world that screams for everything. He is enough for me when all I have is nothing. He is enough for me even when I have everything. He is enough when I'm lost and when I feel as though I'm found. He is enough when I'm stressed and at the end of my rope, He is enough. He satisfies and only that satisfaction is enough for me.
But at the same time, Jesus is everything. His character is far too complex to describe. His patience with me is surreal and love ever growing. He has a plan for me. He is my provider, Jehovah Jireh. He is Yahweh and the Great Prophet. Jesus is the Lion and the Lamb, the Shepherd tending to his lost and helpless sheep. He is forgiving. He sacrifices. Jesus is all knowing and knows me at the same time. Its hard for me to even understand. He is everywhere even when I believe he is nowhere. He is everything. He is everything I need and everything I want.
I'm comforted knowing both. I find peace there. Its enough for me. It means everything.
Even knowing, I find resistance lately to rest in truth. Its a sad truth, but I'm more willing to offer something other than my heart to the Lord. I offer up my time and my ministry, my service, my money, and my relationships. Its this fear that God's Big Grace will actually crush me. That in fact His Grace will 'break' me, and give me this so called 'broken heart' that I long for. It seems far easier to work than it does to rest. My offering becomes my best effort at distracting the God that can't be distracted and really all I do in the meantime, is live in the midst of my own destruction. I long to rest. I long to stop offending God with my attempt at an offering, knowing that to Him, I'm enough. I'm everything. I'm what He wants. He wants my heart, my attention.
Its a beautiful love story. Enough and everything.
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